An Open Letter for YOU

Rough..

I’m trying, God knows I’m trying. Kaso alam kong kulang na kulang na. Do you think I’m that naive? No. You think I am that mean? No. Alam ko naman kung san ka nanggagaling. I fully understand the situation. I am not blaming you. I might sound like I’m putting all the blame on you, but honestly I’m not. I am blaming myself. This is all my fault. But you see, hindi ako makasagot sayo everytime you start the conversation. You know why? Kasi wala akong masabi. I cannot defend myself anymore. Or maybe I am too tired to defend myself. I know that each time we fight, I’m gonna lose. Because all that you’re saying is true. And I cannot admit it.. Or maybe I’m too afraid to admit the truth..

Can we not fight? Can you not blame me? Can we just keep on going? Can we forgive? Can we forget?

Forgive me.. but I’m already lost for words. *shutting..

-_-

Interest income on loans and discounts is assumed to increase conservatively by 8% *deadair..

It is further assumed that the additional loan portfolioshall have an average interest rate of 14% per annum. Service charges and Fees  is assumed to increase by 5%.  It was based on the 1% service charge to be generated on the projected increase of loan portfolio. Bank commissions, Extraordinary income and other income are assumed to increase by 2% for the projected year. The chu chu chu chu.. *yaaaawn..

Interest expense on deposit is assumed to increase by 3%.  It was based on the assumption that deposit liabilities will increase by 3% in the projected year with average cost of fund of 3.00%.  Interest on borrowed funds shall be at 5% p.a. based on a maximum 180-day PN. Salaries and fringe benefits are assumed to increase by 5% per annum .Depreciation expense for existing depreciable fixed assets shall be at P16.96M for the projected year based on the annualized 2012 figure. Additional P0.33M depreciation expense is assumed for the construction and renovation of buildings due to opening of three (3)new branches. Blah blah blah..

Innerself: Bumalanse kaya to? Hmmm..

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Oh sige try nyong basahin. English, please…

How Ironic

Scream. I can’t hear you. Whisper. You’re being too loud.

Laugh. I feel like crying. Cry. That makes me smile.

Linger. I wanna hold loose. Let go. Please baby hold on.

Walk. Just stay.. Be still, I want you out.

Love me, hate me, love me, hate me, love me, hate me, love me, hate me, love me.. hate me.. love me.. hate me.. lo—- *fades..

I don’t like inter-galactic connections.

The evil post

I’m really evil today. Nanlalait lang ako ng mga posts on Facebook. Eh kasi naman,ang aano eh. Haha. Lalo yung mga selfie shot na may madadramang captions. Like, seriously? Anong merong kadramahan sa pagmumukha mo at ang lakas ng loob mong magquote ng mga inspirational thingy sa post na yon? Mga tipong nakapeace sign ka pa or nakapout tapos sasabihin mo ‘Sometimes life can give you blah blah blah..’ Whatdaaa?!

See? Ganyan ang tama ng kape sa sistema ko. Ghaaad I feel so evil but  I can’t help it. Konti na lnag magmemessage na ako sa mga nagpopost ng ganun na friend ko eh. Konte na lang talaga, pigilan nyo ko! Haha.

Please don’t judge me for being so judgemental. Mehehehe. :DD

Let it be.

New set of leaders, now what?

Election has just ended. It was my second time to vote. I voted four out of twelve (4/12) candidates who won and took their senatorial seats. To be honest with you, I am quite disappointed. I’ve been very expressive on my dislike about Binay being able to be on top 5 on Twitter. A lot of people do, only that some are just trying to be on trend. I mean, does everybody really care? I don’t think so.

I don’t hate Binay as a person or as mother to her child or as a daughter to her parents.I don’t hate her for being a senatorial candidate or for claiming that she has enough experience just by being an on-the-job trainee to her mother and father for  20 years. I don’t really hate her for being her.

You know what I really hate about her? It’s about her being a BINAY. It’s about her and her surname and her fame and her being a public figure and her, again proving to the world how poor Filipinos are when it comes to politics. I hate her for again showing to the world that we are a hopeless race. That we are so fucked up. I hate her, I hate that she’s a living proof of our ignorance.

I hate our politics. I hate how it works in this country. I hate how important the nods of religious groups are in this government. Every eligible person has the right to vote. And every responsible voter has a say on who he/she wants to vote.

The only good thing about election is that, all the trending hashtags become sensible, all the KathNiel shits were gone. But that can’t last long, just like Filipinos’ concern and awareness— only when the topic’s hot. Dear God, why did you shower insensitivity in this country?

Election has just ended. And if you would ask me what I want now, there’s just one thing: I WANT TO BE PROVEN WRONG.

Election vanity pictures all over on Facebook. Uhh..

What is it after college?

For a few of us who are lucky enough to finish the BS Accountancy program, after graduation means taking the board exam. What is it after passing the board? There’s just one thing, finding a job. It is not hard to find a job, there are lots of jobs out there. What is hard is finding the job that will make you happy. Satisfaction, for the entry level professionals like us might mean the compensation and benefits we receive. But that’s just one thing. The real life drama is more than that. And then after two weeks or so, you’d find yourself asking what you really want. You’d ask yourself whose call will you respond to.

Hindi lang pala pera pera o career ang usapan dito eh. Some nationalistic instinct will get into your system. Lucky are those who don’t care.

After being hired, I am coming home to Mindoro. Yes, tinatalikuran ko ang syudad at ang lahat ng oportunidad na noong una ay sinunggaban ko. I am from Mindoro, I will serve Mindoro.

May God bless my chosen journey.